juxtaposition

I've named the children that I don't intend on having.  No, I won't tell you.  You'll steal the names just like Rachel did to Monica on Friends.  I'm certain I have a purpose in life yet I have no idea what it is.  I'm learning to embrace that notion instead of push it away.  My thing is knowing what other people's things are.  I am quite possibly the most indecisive person you will ever meet. Yes, that's debatable: 1. because you will probably never meet me and 2. because I'll make a decision just to spite you then change it when you aren't looking. I believe the universe is in control of everything and we are just puppets on strings yet I somehow feel completely free to do as I chose.  I re-invent myself on a daily basis.  The soul is something one creates, not finds.  Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest.  More on that later.  Actually more on all of this later.  I'm a rambler.  A clean freak with OCD.  A grammar nerd.  A book worm.  An introverted flirt.  I believe things don't happen unless it's written in the stars.  Of course a Gemini would believe that.  I believe that nothing is absolute, but can absolutely defend my beliefs.  I used to dream in spanish.  I'm a gypsy at heart. I think inanimate objects have feelings.  I wonder if there really is another planet just like this one with each of us living there wondering whether there is another planet just like this one.  A planet where sentences like that make sense.  I'm a study in contradiction with a million dreams.  I try to live in the current moment but when I think about that moment, I realize it's no longer that moment but the one after, so really, what's the point in staying in the moment when it's over quicker than you can think it into existence.  The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair. I vow to be completely honest throughout my writings here, regardless of my emotional state at the time. To validate my vow, I divert you to the 1st principle-only those that know it will get it.  Yes, I think speaking in code is fun.  We're all playing the same game; we're all looking for redemption.  I write more for me than for you.  I'm selfish like that. I am my own muse.  I'm a prodigy of something.  My life is chaos personified and I wouldn't have it any other way...would I?